Simba, look deep into the heart of God; look deep into the pool and the water, son, for you will see the reflection of that which is to come. Fear not, saith the Lord. Fear not, for the kings that have gone before you; fear not for the things that have happened in the past. For the Lord your God doeth a new thing, a new thing, a new thing. And out of your heart will be born that church that you cry for. For the reflection in the pool is the reflection of God that you will see.
Say not in your heart, I am not the leader that I should be; I am not the king that I want to be. For I've chosen you; I've ordained you; I've fired you and furnaced you; I've brought you through great and many, many, many dark trials and places where you did not know how you were going to get out! But, I have always had it planned; I've always had My hand on you.
No one will take from you the kingship that I've placed upon you. Treachery and deceit move all about you. There are plots; there are plans. There are things in the wind that would try to take that which I have ordained for you, but fear not. I will break every spear; I will crush every assault. I will turn back every treacherous plot and plan - no matter what house they come out of. Whether the house is near or the house is far, the plots and the plans will not prosper, saith the Lord. For I have chosen. I have called the prophet forth. I've laid my hand upon my chosen anointed, and no one, no one, will change what I have ordained.
Fear not, saith God. Let wickedness roll all about thee. Let the heathen roar. Let those in the house of God roar. Let those who do not like the choosing and the reflection of God come forward and state their case, and I will slay all of them, saith God! I, by the breath of my mouth and by the sword of my hand will cut them to pieces. Do not lift a finger against anyone; do not seek to even defend yourself, nor your calling. For your calling is truly of Me, and a calling that is given of God need not be defended by the earth. For I, Myself, will defend my callings and my chosen. And I will make my provision in due time.
Remember that David, before he took the throne was at Ziklag (I Samuel Ch. 30). Remember, he was without provision. His own men were turning against him. All had gone wrong. It was the last step before he received the kingdom of God in the earth.
So, fear not, if you or all those around you go to your Ziklags. When everything appears to be at the end, fear not! Remember the prophet's hand. Remember the Word of the Lord. For, you walk upon the Word of God; you do not walk upon circumstances. Circumstances can not get you out of the dungeons of Egypt. They can not take you off ships that go down. Circumstances are liars, saith the Lord. The Word of God is true! "Trust in the Lord with all your heart; lean not to your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him " and He shall deliver you into that good and perfect place that He has promised you.
And say not, that you can not walk in both the roll of a pastor and an evangelist. Does not Benny, have both a church and an evangelist calling? Does not Rodney, does he not go into the nations of the earth, yet he has a safe place to rest his head, and a place for his family, and a pulpit to stand behind on Sunday morning?
Yea, son, when you yourself were out in the evangelistic field, did you not miss your home? Did you not miss the place which you have grown to love and care for? Did you not even miss the face of the sheep? And yet, in these months and these days that you have been here, have you not missed the drive and the call of the evangelism that burns in your heart? My son, it's not a strange thing, for yea, look upon your back - look around your shoulders. Do you not wear the mantles of both!
You have walked in both realms; you have been trained well. And I am releasing thee this day - I'm calling thee forth to be both for Me. Pick up the sword. Go forth; carry the banner. But, yes, also return home and feed the sheep. Walk in both realms, my son. Be not afraid. I will go forth with you.
You will have that fire and that desire fulfilled in your heart. And yet, you will also have the peace and the comfort of home; keep the home fires burning. Enjoy the love feast with your God. Walk with Me; talk with Me. Be my disciple and be my friend. You shall know both.